The beginning happened long ago. Like every story, this one begins somewhere in the middle.
(if: $Adam is false)[Adam's [[last night]] faded into this morning and he never even realized the transition.]
(if: $Dorothy is false)[Dorothy is drowning in the [[blueish hue|Blueish Hue]] of her cell phone screen as the feelings of trepidation become overwhelming.]
(if: $Lily is false)[Lily is making progress. The routine committed to memory. [[Waking up|Waking Up]] is just another item to cross off the checklist.](set: $Adam to true)(text-style: "blurrier")[Adam's eyes snap open. Bleary from too little sleep...
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(click: "blink")[(text-style: "blur")[A little better now...
blink blink](click: "blink blink")[
The haze fades away and the room comes into focus. Posters of |stars>[galaxies] and a copy of "The Great Wave off Kanagawa". ](click: ?stars)[Clothes in piles on chairs or simply |strewn>[strewn] across the floor.] (click: ?strewn)[
The morning sun filters between blinds and through half-drawn curtains. A naked [[stranger]] sleeps peacefully beside him.] (click: "peacefully")[
You can't help but smile to yourself as you think about how the events of last night were anything but peaceful.]](set: $phone to 0)
Adam's |hide2>[|cell>[cell]] buzzes on the nightstand, the |hide1>[|stranger>[stranger]] grumbles and buries his head even further beneath the pillow(click: ?cell)[(replace: ?hide1)[stranger]
It's a message from Katie... Adam's fling from earlier in the week. He could |hide3>[[[read it|message]]] now, or he could just |stranger2>[ignore it.]](Click: ?stranger)[(replace: ?hide2)[cell](replace: ?hide3)[read it]
Adam has a choice to make... Should he [[slip out]] of the apartment unseen, or [[wait around]] and discover how the morning will unfold with... Benjamin?](click: ?stranger2)[(replace: ?hide2)[cell](replace: ?hide3)[read it]
He decides that Katie will have to wait. Right now, Adam has a choice to make... Should he [[slip out]] of the apartment unseen, or [[wait around]] and discover how the morning will unfold with... Benjamin?]
(click-replace: "Benjamin")[Ryan??]
(click-replace: "Ryan")[whatever his name is](if: $reply is 1)[Adam's dressed himself as quietly as he can and gathered up his things before |leaving>[leaving] the apartment.](click: ?leaving)[
Now, what to do about Katie? He thinks about telling her the |hide2>[|truth>[hard truth]], that she was just another one night stand... |hide1>[|cont1>[Then again... ]]](click-replace: ?cont1)[Then again in cases like these, a diplomatic approach is often |hide3>[|diplomacy>[the best]] for everyone involved. |cont2>[Though... ]](click: ?cont2)[there is always the option of just |hide4>[|ignore>[ignoring]] the message entirely.](click: ?truth)[(replace: ?hide1)[](replace: ?hide3)[the best](replace: ?hide4)[
ignoring]
He knows that he'll come across like an asshole, but he made his intentions perfectly clear up front. Adam pulls out his phone and |writes>[writes]:(click: ?writes)[(text-style: "italic")[
Hey Katie, we (text-style: "bold")[did] have a great time... I don't know what you're looking for, but if it's something more serious then you're asking the |Lily>[wrong person].]]](click: ?Lily)[
After sending the message he sees another notification that he's supposed to meet with Lily today. He should probably [[write|Message To Lily]] to her to make sure she hasn't forgotten.](click: ?diplomacy)[(replace: ?hide2)[hard truth](replace: ?hide4)[ignoring]
She was a nice girl, and she certainly isn't the first to want to see him again, despite what he said about his own expectations. He carefully crafts a message to be as |gentle>[gentle] as possible.](click: ?gentle)[
(text-style: "italic")[
Hi Katie. I had a wonderful time with you too. It would be really nice to see you again, I just don't want you to have any expectations of us being something more than friends or fuck buddies... If you're ok with that, then let's plan |wrong>[something] soon ;)]](click: ?ignore)[(replace: ?hide2)[hard truth](replace: ?hide3)[the best]
After all, It's not his fault if she got the |wrong>[wrong] idea.](click: ?wrong)[
He suddenly remembers a coffee date he has with his old friend, Lily. Better [[write her a message|Message To Lily]] just to make sure she hasn't forgotten.](else:)[(set: $phone to (either: 0, 1))Adams's dressed himself as quietly as he can and gathered up his things before |fleeing>[fleeing] the apartment.](click: ?fleeing)[
He closes the door silently behind him, leans against the wall next to the door and lets out a heavy sigh. In the quiet he notices his ears |text>[(text-style: "shudder")[|ring>[ringing]]]... ](click: ?ring)[(replace: ?text)[ringing]An after effect of dancing(click-replace: "dancing")[grinding](click-replace: "grinding")[kissing] (click-replace: "kissing")[(replace: ?forgetting)[]|forget>[trying to forget...]]|forgetting>[ all night in the club right in front of the speakers, no doubt. ]]
(click: ?forget)[He shakes the thought from his mind and checks for his |phone>[phone](click: ?phone)[(if: $phone is 1)[ He pulls it from his pocket and sees the notification flashing that he's supposed to |meet>[meet] with his friends tomorrow.(click: ?meet)[He'd better write a [[message to Lily|Message To Lily]] to make sure she hasn't forgotten.]](else:)[(goto: "Panic")]]](set: $kiss to 1)
Sneaking away, while Adam's usual routine, doesn't seem right this time around. But |now>[what to do now]?
(click: ?now)[He considers [[waking|wake up]] the stranger up. Though [[exploring|snoop]] the room could be fun. Maybe he could even find something that would tell him the boy's name?]
(set: $phone to 1)
"Click to open unread messages"
(click: "Click to open unread messages")[(text-style: "italic")[Hey Adam... You kind of just disappeard the other night. I thought we had a great time and I'd like to see you again...]]
(click: "see you again")[Adam's stomach ties itself in knots. ](click: "knots")[He was hoping not to have to deal with another one of these messages.](click: "another")[ He could |reply>[slip out] and reply to Katie's message, or ignore it for now and deal with the more pressing issue of the stranger.](click: ?reply)[(set: $reply to 1), (go-to: "slip out")]
(click: "pressing")[Maybe if he [[stuck around|wait around]] for a while he could tell Michael (click-replace: "Michael")[Parker] (click-replace: "Parker")[that boy ]how he really felt and that he shouldn't expect to hear back from him. Or...]
(click-replace: "Or...")[Or it might just be easier if he gathered all of his things and [[snuck out|slip out]] the door before he wakes up.]|hide1>[A few hours later and they're sitting together, catching up about everything that's happened over the |years>[last few years].(click: ?years)[(if: $kiss is 1)[
Most of Adam's time talking is spent telling |Lily>[Lily] about the events of the last 24 hours spent with Alex...](else:)[
Adam considers telling her about the drama with the stranger but... he doesn't really feel like another |Lily>[lecture] from her about how he should stop sleeping around and ruining every chance he has at happiness.]]](click: ?Lily)[(replace: ?hide1)[]
She jokingly asks him how his romantic escapades (if: $kiss is 1)[(aside from the latest one)] have been getting on. He |shrug>[shrugs] the question, unsure if he's going to continue his reign of promiscuity...]
(click: ?shrug)[When their time together is coming to an end, Adam asks Lily if she wants to go to the [[pride|Pride - Adam]] parade with him later that day. See the sights. Maybe (if: $kiss is 0)[kiss a stranger](else:)[Alex will be there..].]
(set: $Adam to false)(set: $Lily to false)(set: $Dorothy to false)
This is the story of three |misfit>[misfits]. (click: ?misfit)[All |alone>[alone].](click: ?alone)[ All |scared>[scared].](click: ?scared)[ All |tired>[tired].] (click: ?tired)[ And all of these things all |own>[in their own ways].](click: ?own)[ They've known each other for years, but are only now getting |touch>[back in touch].]
(click: ?touch)[[[Treat them with care|The Start]].]|wait1)[.]|wait2)[.]|wait3)[.] |wait4)[OH |fuck>[FUCK]!]
(click: ?fuck)[How could he have forgotten? How could he be so |stupid>[stupid]?]
(click: ?stupid)[He gently knocks his head a few times against the wall. His phone, still on the |phone>[night stand],](click: ?phone)[ lying quietly right next to his latest one |nightstand>[night stand]... ](click: ?nightstand)[
What the fuck is he supposed to do |now>[now]? ](click: ?now)[
It's not like he can just leave it there... but the only alternative is to knock on the door, wake up the guy who's name he |name>[can't remember ](click: ?name)[and very clearly admit to the fact that he was about to take off without a word(click-replace: "a word")[a goodbye](click-replace: "a goodbye")[a kiss](click-replace: "a kiss")[the chance for something |more>[more]]...]]
(click: ?more)[It's time to |choose>[choose].]
(click: ?choose)[He [[leaves]] and buys a new phone, or he [[knocks]].]
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}There's (text-style: "bold")[NO] way that he can afford a new phone right now...
|must)[Almost automatically he realizes what he has to do. He raises his hand and prepares himself for the inevitable...]
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|knocks>[(align: "=><====")[|knock1)[KNOCK]]
(align: "==><===")[|knock2)[KNOCK]]
(align: "===><==")[|knock3)[KNOCK]]]
|answer)[The sound reverberates in the silence behind the |door>[door].](click: ?door)[You hear some confused |open>[grumbling] and bare feet making their way toward you.]
(click: ?open)[The door swings inward. The boy leans against the doorframe with a sheet draped around his shoulders. Adam can't make out what his expression means, but he's clearly waiting to hear an [[explanation]].]
(if: $kiss is 1)[When Adam finally leaves the apartment, his head is |spin>[spinning].](click: ?spin)[ He hasn't felt this way about a person... Well, not |faith>[since her]...](click: ?faith)[ He'll definitely have to tell |Lily>[Lily] everything that's happened.](click: ?Lily)[(show: ?remind)]
(else:)[Lily can be forgetful sometimes... They've just gotten back in touch again after a few years and Adam still feels as |close>[close to her] as he ever did.](click: ?close)[(show: ?remind)]
|remind)[<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "==>")[Hey Lily! You haven't forgotten about our coffee date tomorrow, have you? `o_O`
I've got so much to |talk>[talk] to you about!]]</div>](click: ?talk)[Lily |reply>[replies] after a while.]
(click: ?reply)[{(live:0s)[(align: "<==")[<div class="message_Solid">Hey hey</div>]]
(live: 2s)[(align: "<==")[<div class="message_Solid">I wouldn't dare to forget. Can't wait to hear the news.</div>]]
(live: 4s)[(align: "<==")[<div class="message_Solid">I invited Dorothy too, she seems to be going through a bad time currently. Hope you don't mind?</div>]]
(live: 6s)[(align: "<==")[<div class="message_Solid">[[See you|Coffee Date - Adam]] in a bit :)</div>]]}]
|hide>[A few |months>[months] have passed.(click: ?months)[ The group fell |apart>[out of touch]... ](click: ?apart)[
But somehow they all managed to |reach>[reach out] to each other and meet up again.]
(click: ?reach)[What's happening in their lives? What has changed? They talk to each other about what happened |before>[before].]
(click: ?before)[(if: $Adam is false)[Listen to Adam's [[story|The Start]].](else:)[Adam was |hurt>[hurt].(click-prepend: ?hurt)[|filled>[filled] with ](click: ?filled)[ He wanted |want>[love].](click-replace: ?want)[a place to |belong>[belong]](click-replace: ?belong)[call |home>[home]](click: ?home)[ But some of the |battle>[hardest battles..].](click-replace: ?battle)[hardest battles are fought in your own head]]
(if: $Lily is false)[Listen to Lily's [[story|The Start]].](else:)[Lily was |scatter>[scattered](click-append: ?scatter)[ to the |wind>[wind]](click: ?wind)[(replace: ?scatter)[|lost>[scatter-brained]]].(click: ?lost)[ |but1>[She had hopes].](click-append: ?but1)[ for |normal>[normality]](click: ?normal)[ But some habits die |hard>[hard].(click-prepend: ?hard)[too ]]]
(if: $Dorothy is false)[Listen to Dorothy's [[story|The Start]].](else:)[|scared>[Dorothy was scared](click-append: ?scared)[ |alone>[of being left alone].](click-replace: ?alone)[of losing it |all>[all].](click: ?all)[
|but>[But...]](click-replace: ?but)[But |friends>[friends].](click-append: ?friends)[ make all the difference.]]
]]
(if: $Adam is true and $Dorothy is true and $Lily is true)[(replace: ?hide)[]The End](set: $wakeUp to true)Adam sits on the side of the bed and just looks at the boy sleeping |peace>[peacefully]. (click: ?peace)[He doesn't want to be alone in someone else's apartment. His mind starts |racing>[racing]:](text-style: "italic")[
(click: ?racing)[Should I just wake him up? Is that even a thing people |do>[do]? ](click: ?do)[How do you even |how>[do that]? ](click: ?how)[I could |shake>[shake] him a bit? ](click: ?shake)[Would it be weird to |kiss>[kiss] his forehead?... ](click: ?kiss)[I guess I'll just |poke>[poke] him until he wakes up.]]
(click: ?poke)[|poke1>[Poke...]]
(click: ?poke1)[|poke2>[Poooooke...]]
(click: ?poke2)[|poke3>[poke poke poke]]
(click: ?poke3)[|nope>["Woah... He's not waking up! I guess I really |tired>[wore him out] last night" ^_^]](click: ?tired)[ "Well! I guess there's nothing left to do but [[snoop]]!](set: $stranger to "the stranger")(set: $mementos to 1)(set: $plants to 1)(set: $photos to 1)(set: $books to 1)(set: $snoopTime to 0)(set: $dropped to 0)(set: $room to "snoop")(set: $dropThing to "book")(set: $dropsy to false)(set: $lrSeen to false)
(if: $wakeUp is true)[Where should he start |searching>[searching]?]
(else:)[There's so much to explore. Adam stands in this place which contains every |stuff>[earthly posession](click-replace: ?stuff)[belonging](click-replace: "belonging")[|memory>[memory]] of this person he met last night. (click: ?memory)[|meaning>[What does it all mean] to $stranger?](click: ?meaning)[ What |secrets>[secrets] does he have hidden away in these rooms?]]
(click: ?secrets)[And where should he start |searching>[searching]? |hide1>[|hide>[|doubt>[Or...]](click: ?doubt)[(replace: ?doubt)[Or] is this |wrong>[wrong]? He could always just [[wake up]] the stranger instead.]]]
(click: ?searching)[(replace: ?hide)[](replace: ?hide1)[]
He could stay in the [[bedroom]] and do some quiet recon.
Maybe he could find some coffee or something to eat in the [[kitchen]].
And who knows what Adam could find in the [[living room]].]|hide3>[Adam could |hide1>[|truth>[tell it like it is]], or try to come up with an |hide2>[|excuse>[acceptable excuse]].
(click: ?truth)[(set: $kiss to 1)(replace: ?hide2)[acceptable excuse]
Here's the truth, Adam says. I'm not good at the whole 'morning after' thing and just wanted to get out |sneak>[before you noticed... ](click: ?sneak)[The boy smirks and shakes his head. (Is that look on his face playful(click-replace: "playful")[|annoyed>[annoyed]]?)]](click: ?annoyed)[
And how'd that |banter>[work out] for you, Adam?](click: ?banter)[
Adam's face goes a bright shade of red. Yeah... |notWell>[not too well], I guess. ](click: ?notWell)[
Look, I just forgot my phone, could you please just go get it for me and I'll be |coffee>[out of here]. ](click: ?coffee)[
The boy throws his head back and laughs, the sheet slips from his shoulder revealing his bare chest. Alright, I'll tell you what. You can have your phone back, but you have to stay and drink a cup of coffee with me. |deal>[Deal]? ](click: ?deal)[
What choice does Adam have? Yeah... I guess I could stay |pounce>[for]...]](click: ?pounce)[(replace: ?hide3)[]Before he can finish his sentence, the sheet has fallen to the floor and the stranger has grabbed his face and kissed him deeply. Adam is drawn back in to the apartment and [[the door closes|Message To Lily]] behind him.]
|hide4>[(click: ?excuse)[(replace: ?hide1)[tell it like it is]Look... I'm really sorry but I've got an appointment to get to and just forgot my phone... |couldYou>[Could you...]? ](click: ?couldYou)[
The strangers face flashes from annoyance, to hurt, to resigned acceptance. Without a word he returns to the apartment leaving Adam in the |threshhold>[doorway]. ](click: ?threshhold)[After a few seconds that feel like hours, he returns and puts the phone in Adam's hand. Anything else you |forgot>[forgot]? he asks. ](click: ?forgot)[
(text-style: "italic")[Adam had a great time with this guy... Maybe the best time he's had with someone in a long time. He knows that he wants to say something but by now he's miles outside of his comfort zone. There might be a moment of |hesitation>[hesitation], he might overcome his insecurity and |share>[tell the boy how he feels], or he might lose his nerve and |run>[get away] as fast as he can.]]]
(click: ?hesitation)[(replace: ?hide4)[](replace: ?hide3)[](set: $hesitation to 1)[[I... uhhh..|Reject]]]
(click: ?share)[(replace: ?hide4)[]Actually there is [[something else|Accept]].]
(click: ?run)[(replace: ?hide4)[]Thanks... but there's [[nothing|Reject]] else to say.](if: $hesitation is 1)[Adam's mind races as he tries to find the |stammer>[right words]... "I... uhh..."](click: ?stammer)[
Don't bother, the stranger says. I've been with enough guys like you to know the |expectation>[bullshit] that's about to come out of your mouth, and I don't want to hear it.](click: ?expectation)[
The door starts to |opportunity>[close] in Adams's face.](click: ?opportunity)[(show: ?hold)(live: 1500ms)[ (replace: ?late)[
The door closes. It's |tooLate>[too late].](stop:)]]|late>[
|hold)[Stop the door.]](click: ?hold)[(set: $late to 1)(go-to: "Accept")]
(click: ?tooLate)[The opportunity is |gone>[gone].](click: ?gone)[
Shocked and just a little bit ashamed, Adam [[leaves|Message To Lily]] the apartment.](else:)[Indignation flashes through the strangers eyes and he |unsmooth>[slams the door].](click: ?unsmooth)[ Not Adam's smoothest dismount. At least the whole mess is now |over>[over] with.](click: ?over)[(go-to: "Message To Lily")](if: $late is 1)[Wait. |stay>[Don't go]. (click: ?stay)[
I'm |trying>[really trying] here.]](click: ?trying)[ Just... just give me |second>[a second]...](click: ?second)[(show: ?confession)]
(else:)[Here's the |truth>[truth].](click: ?truth)[(show: ?confession)]
|confession)[I like you... a lot. I |just>[just]...]
(click: ?just)[ I don't ever stick around. I don't let myself get |close>[close] and so many people have told me the same thing, I've just never listened.](click: ?close)[ I don't even remember your |name>[name] for christ sake.](click: ?name)[
Adam is amazed to see the stranger |blush>[blush] and pull the sheet more tightly around his shoulders.](click: ?blush)[ He smirks the cheekiest smirk imaginable and juts out |hand>[his hand].](click: ?hand)[
Nice to meet you, Adam. I'm |Alex>[Alex].]
(click: ?Alex)[(set: $kiss to 1)(go-to: "Message To Lily")](set: $room to "bedroom")(if: $dropped is > 0)[What else is on the |sneak>[bookshelf]?]
(else:)[Adam's always prided himself on his ninja-like sneakiness. Now it's time to put it to the |test>[test]. (click: ?test)[He guesses $stranger wouldn't like to wake up to see someone |sneak>[poking around] through his things.]](click: ?sneak)[
There's a bookshelf filled to overflowing with (if: $mementos is 1)[[[mementos|mementos]]](else:)[mementos], small (if: $plants is 1)[[[potted plants|plants]]](else:)[potted plants], (if: $photos is 1)[[[photos|photos]]](else:)[photos] and, obviously, (if: $books is 1)[[[books|books]]](else:)[books].
Go to the [[living room]].](set: $room to "kitchen")(set: $coffee to false)(set: $breakfast to false)(set: $snoopTime to it + 2)
Adam rummages through the kitchen. Maybe some |hide1>[|coffee>[coffee]] would help the boy wake up? Or he could go 'full-on adorable' and make |hide2>[|breakfast>[breakfast].]
(click: ?coffee)[(set: $coffee to true)(replace: ?hide2)[breakfast](replace: ?hide3)[]Adam brews a pot of coffee, grabs two mugs, milk and sugar, and returns to the [[bedroom|in bed]].]
(click: ?breakfast)[(set: $breakfast to true)(replace: ?hide1)[coffee]Something about the last night is bringing out Adam's |care>[caring side].](click: ?care)[ He had honestly thought that he had gotten rid of it by now, but... something about that boy sleeping in the other room is making him feel something [[new|in bed]].]
|hide3>[Go back to the [[living room]]](set: $room to "living room")
(if: $lrSeen is false)[Adam wanders through the living room, looks absent-mindedly through the boy's record collection before seeing a pile of |mail>[mail] on the coffee table.(click: ?mail)[(set: $stranger to "Alex") Bingo! His name is |Alex>[Alex]!](click: ?Alex)[(set: $lrSeen to true)(set: $snoopTime to it + 5)]]
Go to the [[kitchen]] or the [[bedroom]].
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]}|hide>[(if: $dropped is true)[As soon as the pot crashes to the floor a pillow is flung straight at Adam's head and $stranger let's out a piercing (text-style: "rumble")|loud>[shrieeeeeeek!!!]](else:)[Adam hears $stranger yawn and stretch in the bed. Maybe he's finally |go1>[waking up]?(click: ?go1)[ Adam decides that he would like to be the first thing $stranger sees when he [[wakes up|in bed]].]]]
|hide2>[(click: ?loud)[(replace: ?hide)[]"Oh jesus, it's you. I thought you would have been |gone>[gone by now]", he says through a grin.](click: ?gone)[
Adam shrugs and turns back to the bookcase... |go>[I...]](click: ?go)[ "I thought about it, but... I had a really great time with you and I guess I wasn't ready for it to be |over>[over]".](click: ?over)[
$stranger leans back against the wall and folds his arms across his chest. "Well aren't you just the sweetest. I just hope that you didn't break anything while |snoop>[snooping] through my shit...](click: ?snoop)[ And last night I thought you were so |smooth>[smooth], too." ](click: ?smooth)[
He winks at Adam, who lets out a |nervous>[nervous] chuckle. ](click: ?nervous)[
$stranger gets out of the bed and comes across the room. They pass some time together looking through the bookshelf. Adam doesn't learn nearly as much as he |want>[wants] to... ](click: ?want)[He'll have to keep coming back if he hopes to satisfy his |curiosity>[curiosity].]](click: ?curiosity)[(replace: ?hide2)[] After some more time passes, Adam realizes that his |date>[coffee date] with Lily is coming up. ](click: ?date)[He'd better write her a [[message|Message To Lily]] to make sure she hasn't forgotten.](set: $catches to 0)(set: $dropsy to true)
|begin>[Adam sees the $dropThing start |falling>[falling] as if in slow motion. ](click: ?falling)[His hand shoots out to catch it |oops>[but ]](click: ?oops)[|miss>[he misses]] (click: ?miss)[|try>[ on the first try]] (click: ?try)[|start>[ and...]]
|hide7>[(align: "<==")[|hide1>[|catch1)[FUCK!]]]
(align: "=====><=")[|hide2>[|catch2)[DAMMIT!!]]]
(align: "=><=====")[|hide3>[|catch3)[Don't!!!]]]
(align: "====><==")[|hide4>[|catch4)[NO!!!!]]]
(align: "==><====")[|hide5>[|catch5)[STOP!!!!!]]]
(align: "=><=")[|catch6)[ACK!!!!!!]]
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(click: ?catch6)[(set: $catches to it + 1)](if: $catches is <1)[Adam's arms flail wildly trying to catch the falling $dropThing, but he only manages to knock down more things in the attempt. This causes quite the |crashed>[commotion] and he freezes in place.](else-if: $catches <3)[Adam juggled the $dropThing between his hands before it finally |crashed>[crashed] to the floor. He freezes in place and squeezes his eyes shut holding his breath and praying that $stranger won't wake up.](else:)[After bouncing it in the air between his hands, Adam finally managed to firmly grasp the $dropThing and place it |sneaky>[quietly] back on the shelf. Very ninja-like indeed, sadly noone was awake to witness the spectacle.](click: ?sneaky)[ He continues exploring the [[bedroom]].]
(click: ?crashed)[(set: $dropped to true)(go-to: "stranger awakes")](set: $mementos to 0)
Memories and knick-knacks |gather>[gathe(text-colour:cyan)+(bg:cyan)[red] from friends, vacations, and who knows where else. (click: ]?gather)[A halved |hide1>[|geode>[geode]]. A carved |hide2>[|figurine>[figurine]]. A deep blue |hide3>[|gemstone>[gemstone]].]
|hide4>[(click: ?geode)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropThing to "geode")(replace: ?hide1)[geode](set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))The smooth outer surface transitions from deep purple to pale white. The jagged inside catches and scatters the dim light shining in the |back1>[window].]]|hide5>[(click: ?figurine)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropThing to "figurine")(replace: ?hide2)[figurine](set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))A dark wood carved into the shape of an interlocking loop. Was it carved from a |back2>[single piece]?]]|hide6>[(click: ?gemstone)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 2)(set: $dropThing to "gemstone")(replace: ?hide3)[gemstone](set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))Adam doesn't really know gemstones, maybe it's Lapis Lazuli? It stands like a tiny obelisk on the shelf, behind it is a book with the title |gems>['Gemstones and Their Power']. (click: ?gems)[Oh great, he's a |back3>[new-ager]...]]]
What else is on the [[bookshelf?|bedroom]]
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There are two potted |plant>[plants] on the shelves.(click: ?plant)[ They look very |health>[healthy] and well-cared for. ](click: ?health)[Adam sees a |hide1>[|cactus>[cactus]] in a green pot, and a |hide2>[|bamboo>[lucky bamboo]] in a vase that looks like it's made of cement.]
|hide3>[(click: ?cactus)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "cactus")(replace: ?hide1)[cactus]The little cactus has a tag that says it's |back1>[indiginous] to southern Arizona.]]|hide4>[(click: ?bamboo)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 2)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "bamboo")(replace: ?hide2)[lucky bamboo]There are several stalks of bamboo here. They all have |go>[twisty] bits at the top. ](click: ?go)[How do they make them |back2>[grow] like that, Adam wonders?]]
What else is on the [[bookshelf?|bedroom]]
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(click: ?back2)[(replace: ?hide4)[]](set: $photos to 0)
There are several photos in nice |frame>[frames].(click: ?frame)[ One of them is a group of people. Probably his |hide1>[|family>[family]]. Another is a photo of him in front of a |hide2>[|building>[building]]. The third is him with |hide3>[|guy>[another guy]].]
|hide4>[(click: ?family)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "photo")(replace: ?hide1)[family]There are five of them in the photo, well... six if you count the photo of another person that $stranger is holding. It's probably his |back1>[brother] who couldn't be there...]]
|hide5>[(click: ?building)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "photo")(replace: ?hide2)[building]It looks like he's standing in front of a University? That's probably on his move-in day. He looks so |back2>[happy].]]
|hide6>[(click: ?guy)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 2)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "photo")(replace: ?hide3)[another guy]For a moment Adam worries that this is a picture of his |fear>[boyfriend]. ](click: ?fear)[After looking at the other pictures, he realize that it's just his brother. |back3>[Crisis averted].]]
What else is on the [[bookshelf?|bedroom]]
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Three books immediately catch Adam's |eye>[eye]. (click: ?eye)[ |hide1>[|book1>['Gemstones and Their Power']], |hide2>[|book2>['The Three Body Problem']], and |hide3>[|book3>['1Q84']].]
|hide4>[(click: ?book1)[(set: $stranger to "Alex")(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "book")(replace: ?hide1)['Gemstones and Their Power'] It doesn't really surprise Adam that the boy is into this kind of stuff. Inside the cover, he notices an inscription... This stranger's name is |back1>[Alex].]]
|hide5>[(click: ?book2)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 2)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "book")(replace: ?hide2)['The Three Body Problem']From checking the back cover, it seems like it's a hard sci-fi book about other planets? Not really Adam's |back2>[thing].]]
|hide6>[(click: ?book3)[(set: $snoopTime to it + 1)(set: $dropped to it + (random: 1,10))(set: $dropThing to "book")(replace: ?hide3)['1Q84']"What a weird title..." Adam scoffs. He puts the book right |back3>[back] without reading any further.]]
What else is on the [[bookshelf?|bedroom]]
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(click: ?back3)[(replace: ?hide6)[]](if: $coffee is true)[As if by |magic>[magic], $stranger sits up in bed as soon as Adam enters the room with the freshly-brewed coffee.(click: ?magic)[ They spend the rest of the morning lying around in bed until Adam realizes that his |date>[coffee date] with Lily is coming up tomorrow. ](click: ?date)[He'd better write her a [[message|Message To Lily]] to make sure she hasn't forgotten.]](else-if: $breakfast is true)[He's made a total |mess>[mess] of the kitchen.](click: ?mess)[ Through some sort of magic he actually pulled together a halfway decent |breakfast>[breakfast].](click: ?breakfast)[ As soon as he's finished, $stranger appears in the doorway with a sheet draped around his shoulders, obviously |naked>[naked] beneath.](click: ?naked)[ The two spend the rest of the morning lying around in bed, eating the food and drinking coffee until Adam realizes that his |date2>[coffee date] with Lily is coming up tomorrow. ](click: ?date2)[He'd better write her a [[message|Message To Lily]] to make sure she hasn't forgotten.](else:)[The boy looks incredibly groggy. Adam |kiss>[kisses] him softly.](click: ?kiss)[
"Good morning. I guess you were pretty |tired>[tired], huh?"](click: ?tired)[ the boy blushes sheepishly before placing his hand on Adam's cheek and kissing him |again>[again]. ](click: ?again)[They spend a few more hours together before Adam remembers his |date3>[coffee date] with Lily tomorrow. ](click: ?date3)[He'd better write her a [[message|Message To Lily]] to make sure she hasn't forgotten.]http://www.philome.la/vatavian/import-and-embed-fonts-in-twinePride is a blinding array of colors, bodies, and sounds. Adam feels at home. (click-replace: "home.")[|peace>[peace].]
(click: ?peace)[After a few hours of taking in the sights with Lily, Adam starts of a conversation with a cute guy and thinks about Dorothy, maybe meeting someone new could |help>[help] her out of her slump? ](click: ?help)[He [[writes|Adam - Message To Dorothy]] her a message.]<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "==>")[Hey Dorothy! I know you've been having some |trouble>[guy troubles] lately... :/]]</div>
(click: ?trouble)[<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "==>")[There's a super cute boy here and I just found out he's single! I'll leave him for you if you're |interest>[interested] ;-)]]</div>]
(click: ?interest)[<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "==>")[I'm here at Pride with Lily. You should come |join>[join] us! See you soon, babe! :-*]]</div>]
(click: ?join)[Adam slides his phone back into his pocket and immediately |forget>[forgets] about Dorothy.](click: ?forget)[ He loses himself to the spectacle and goes right back to |dance>[dancing] in the streets.](click: ?dance)[ He doesn't even realize when he gets |lost>[seperated] from Lily...](click: ?lost)[ It's not until a few months later that he finally sees the two of them [[again|Final Meeting]].](set: $Lily to true)The morning is routine. [Brush,] [shower,] [clothe] [- repeat daily.] (click: "repeat")[So repetitive, it's difficult to forget or get wrong. Routine is the keyword. This is the big gain of all of those support group sessions. They've helped her. Big time.
[[Where the mind flies]]]
ADHD is a bitch. Where does the mind fly away to? What strange alleyways does it visit before forgetting its steps completely. This and much more (click: "more")[] crosses her mind as she calls the lift to descend the 8 stories from her flat. (text-style: "upside-down")[Lift.] (click: "Lift.")[<audio src="https://123assets.yolasite.com/resources/Elevator%20Music%20-%20Vanoss%20Gaming%20Background%20Music.mp3" autoplay>(stop:)]<!--(click: "Lift.")[(live: 2s)-->[It's there in an instant. She's found that a breath of fresh air often helps. She knows the idea wasn't big. Or important. Otherwise it would have been in a reminder on the phone. And on a post-it. Phones are way too unreliable. Still, losing ideas bothers her, no matter their importance. Then again, she's easily frustrated. It's one of the symptoms. It's gotten better though. All the behavior modification and counseling have had their effect.] (live: 30s)[The lift reaches the ground floor. She steps outside. It's sunny with a gust of wind.
[[Walk]]]ADHD is a bitch. Where does the mind fly away to? What strange alleyways does it visit before forgetting its steps completely. She drops these thoughts as she starts dialing mom's number. (text-style: "fade-in-out") + (click: "dialing")[...] (click: "...")[She's found that talking to someone helps remembering. It also helps with the frustration. She's often and easily frustrated. It's one of the symptoms. And no one understands her like mom. Well, maybe Adam and Dorothy. Or maybe they did at some point. Or do they still? Another digression.] (click: "digression.")[Mom picks up. Her voice is instantly soothing.] (click: "soothing.")[They don't phone daily, yet it always feels like mom knows everything that's happening. Feels like a safe zone. They talk for a while.] (click: "while.")[She doesn't remember what she forgot half an hour ago. She knows the idea wasn't <font size=6>big.</font> Or (text-style: "mark")[important.] Otherwise it would have been in a reminder on the phone.] (click: "phone.")[And on a post-it. Phones are way too unreliable. Isn't angry about forgetting anymore. The talk does remind her of something she forgot yesterday though. Too late for that now. She goes out for a walk.
[[Walk]]](set: $job to false)Walk where? Where does she feel like going? This question often devolves into a philosophical musing about the benefits of leaving altogether. A distraction. (text-style: "fade-in-out")[Focus now.] To the bridge or to the fountain?
[[Bridge]]
[[Fountain]]The path she takes more often. Her pace is steady. She's dressed ordinarily. That's her style. She has to pay extra attention to paying attention when walking outside. Too many dangers for someone whose mind wanders. (click: "wanders.") + (replace: "wanders.")[...racoons.] (click: "racoons.") + (replace: "...racoons.")[...posters.] (click: "...posters.") + (replace: "...posters.")[...trash.] (click: "...trash.") + (replace: "...trash.")[wanders...] (click: "wanders...")[She passes places she doesn't even notice anymore. (text-style: "underline")[Almost] repressed is the memory of her failed relationship too, always popping up when she passes her ex-partner's flat. Her girlfriend couldn't handle her constant mood swings, even though she knew it was part of her disorder. It's all in the past now, anyways.] (click: "anyways.")[A few minutes later she's at the bridge. She loves this spot. All the commuters make her feel inconsequential. Her thoughts have free rein here. (text-style: "upside-down") + (text-style: "mirror")[.Too many of them to list] She likes the feeling.
[[Home]]]She goes for the path less taken. The bridge is usually her favorite. She's not feeling like it today though. (click: "not feeling") + (replace: "She's not feeling like it today though.")[But now she saw someone she hates coming from that direction.] (click: "direction.")[The fountain has its charms too.] (click: "too.")[Her pace is steady. She's dressed ordinarily. That's her style. She has to pay extra attention to paying attention when walking outside. Too many dangers for someone whose mind wanders.] (click: "wanders.") + (replace: "wanders.")[...trees.] (click: "...trees.") + (replace: "...trees.")[...people walking dogs.] (click: "...people walking dogs.") + (replace: "...people walking dogs.")[...storefronts.] (click: "...storefronts.") + (replace: "...storefronts.")[wanders...] (click: "wanders...")[She passes places she doesn't even notice anymore. The fountain is closer to her flat than the bridge. She gets there within minutes. There's an unusually small number of people there. She had hoped for more...] (click: "more...")[Being alone makes her feel (text-style: "bold") + (text-style: "underline") + (text-style: "shudder")[exposed.] She doesn't stay there long before turning back home.
[[Home]]](if: $job is false)[There's a feeling of inevitability as she heads home. As if there is something bound to be forgotten. (click: "forgotten.")[Misplaced.] (click: "Misplaced.")[Lost.] (click: "Lost.")[She pushes these thoughts aside.] (click: "aside.")[Looking at people yet not noticing anyone, she strides forward. Close to home, she passes by the place she used to work at before. Her old 9 to 5. More like 9 to 2 though.] (click: "though.")[It was so close to her flat. [[Perfect|Old job]].]] (if: $job is true)[Her problems made her unreliable at some point. It was difficult to deal with this.] (click: "this.")[It wasn't about the finances. It was about the feeling of belonging somewhere - a rare, exalted feeling for her. Best to forget though. Life goes on.] (click: "Life goes on.") + (replace: "Life goes on.")[She starts feeling weird. It's happening (text-style: "shudder")[again...]] (click: "again...")[
[[?]]] (text-style: "fade-in-out")[.....]
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There's a blur in her memory. (click-replace: "memory.")[ماذا?] (click-replace: "ماذا?")[어디에?] (click-replace: "어디에?")[ਕਿਉਂ?] (click-replace: "ਕਿਉਂ?")[
She's unsure whether she's been doing anything or if she had one of her staring-at-the-wall periods. They happen every now and then. Best she can do is go along with them, not much she can change.] (click: "change.")[It's 1AM. An entire day wasted.] (click: "wasted.")[At least she doesn't feel like scatterbraining anymore. She walks into the kitchen, where a post-it reminds her 'she has a meeting with her friends' on May 16. Today.] (click: "Today.")[She thanks all her lucky stars that her body decided to reset in time not to miss that. As she grabs the handle to open the fridge, Lily hears her phone vibrate and send out a barrage of sounds in the living room. (text-style: "bold")[Undeterred,]] (click: "Undeterred,")[she grabs a yogurth, a chocolate and leftovers of cake before heading towards her phone.] (click: "phone.")[Stop.] (click: "Stop.") [She needs some water.] (click: "water.")[Wow, that floor really could use a scrub.] (click: "scrub.")[So could that glass.] (click: "glass.")[Hydrated, she leaves the kitchen.] (click: "leaves")[Goes into the [[bedroom.|Bedroom]]]
]She finally gets to read Adam's message.
<div class="message_Solid">[Hey Lily! You haven't forgotten about our coffee date tomorrow, have you? `o_O`
I've got so much to talk to you about!]</div>
(live: 5s)[She [[replies|Reply To Adam]] straight away, lest she gets distracted again.]After a while, she find a corner where there aren't too many people. She looks down at the drugs she's holding. (text-style: "shudder")[Her hands are shaking.] She's scared. Knows how drugs mix with her disorder. All kinds of thoughts pass through her head. (click-replace: "All kinds of thoughts pass through her head.")[סמים שוב] (click-replace: "סמים שוב")[countless blackouts] (click-replace: "countless blackouts")[ਕπόνος] (click-replace: "ਕπόνος")[ડોકટરો] (click-replace: "ડોકટરો")[is it worth it?] (click-replace: "is it worth it?")[ungabi yinto] (click-replace: "ungabi yinto")[
Closing her eyes, she pops two pills. (click: "pills")[(live: 1.5s)[(text-style: "fade-in-out")[.....](stop:)]]
(live: 4s)[(replace: ".....")[(text-style: "shudder")[...]](stop:)]
(live: 7s)[(replace: "...")[]<1|(stop:)]
(live: 11s)[(replace: "?1")[(text-style: "shudder") + (text-style: "fade-in-out")[.....]<2|](stop:)]
(live: 15s)[(stop:)(replace: "?2")[]<3|]
(live: 16s)[(stop:)(replace: "?3")[she doesn't recuerda (click-replace: "recuerda")[remember how much time has passed.] (click: "passed.")[Can't find her phone.] (click: "phone.")[(text-style: "mark")[Fuck.] Can't ...headache (click-replace: "...headache")[...needles]](click-replace: "...needles")[...people making out](click-replace: "...people making out")[focus at all.](click: "all.")[She tries to stand up but she can't yet.] (click: "yet.")[she needs help.] (click: "she needs help")[ជំនួយ.] (click: "ជំនួយ.")[no one is there.] (click: "there.")[She tries to pull herself up forcefully.] (click: "forcefully.")[It's the last thing she remembers for a [[long while.|Final Meeting]]]
]]]She is amazed to find a message by Dorothy. It's been a while and Lily felt like Dorothy had tried to shut her off. A message by Adam is waiting around too, received while she was unconsciously wallgazing, most likely. The one from [[Dorothy|Message From Dorothy]] instantly intrigues her.
[[Snap out of it]]
(if: $timeScrolling < 160) [[Scroll]]
(set: $timeScrolling to $timeScrolling + 20)(if: $timeScrolling is 20) [ She manages to snap out of it surprisingly quickly, after only $timeScrolling minutes. Is there a whiff of self-control entering her life? ] (click: "life?")[She catches herself in time to [[answer Adam.|Message From Adam]]]
(if: $timeScrolling > 21) [ She continues scrolling for $timeScrolling minutes before realizing... ] (click: "realizing...")[She forgot to [[answer Adam.|Message From Adam]]](set: $job to true)What was she thinking about again? (text-style: "mirror") + (text-style: "upside-down")[What?] She's having a [[walk|Home]], right? What happens after 9AM? She knows she had a plan, but it's slipped her mind. It happens frequently. Very frequently. She tries to focus. (click: "focus.")[Oh god, look, there's a <font size=8>(text-style: "shudder") + (text-colour: "red")[spider.]</font> Her shriek seems to scare it out through the window. She feels hungry. What was it that she forgot again?
[[Go outside]]
[[Phone mom]]]Radiohead on the record player in the living room. She likes that guy with the weird eye who sings for them. Thinks he might also have some problems similar to her. (click: "her.")[She picks up the phone. She goes to click] (click: "click")[the home button, but a sudden urge to eat takes over. She takes a bite of cake. Happier now, she clicks. There's [[messages.]]]
(live: 2s)[<audio src="https://123assets.yolasite.com/resources/Radiohead%20-%20Paranoid%20Android-64.mp3" autoplay>(stop:)]{(live:0.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">hey</div>]
(live: 1s)[<div class="message_Solid">are you there</div>]
(live: 2.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">ive had a shitty day at work</div>]
(live: 3.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">i yelled at Kyle.... again</div>]
(live: 4.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">when im stressed out i have a hard time controlling my emotions</div>]
(live: 5.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">i know hes sick of this he wont even respond to my messages</div>]
(live: 6.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">im scared. i cant take being rejected again</div>]
(live: 7.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">my life is hell</div>]
(live: 10s)[<div class="message_Solid">you awake?</div>]}
{(live: 13s)[<div class="message_Solid">Lily im sorry for having pushed you away</div>]
(live: 14s)[<div class="message_Solid">shit had really hit the fan. when i met Kyle he meant the world to me. i did no mean to push you away. my brain just cant process that many people at once....</div>]
(live: 15s)[<div class="message_Solid">im really harmful to the people around me. i should just stay alone</div>]
(live: 17s)[<div class="message_Solid">i would really like to make up with you. my life lies in shambles. i cant bear to have more people leave me.</div>]}
(live: 18s)[Lily [[replies|Reply To Dorothy]] straight away, seeing the urgency of the situation.](live: 1s)[She] (live: 1.5s)[hasn't] (live: 2s)[used] (live: 2.5s)[these] (live: 3s)[in] (live: 3.5s)[a] (live: 4s)[while.] (live: 4.5s)[Remnants] (live: 5s)[of] (live: 5.5s)[the] (live: 6s)[past] (live: 6.5s)[she'd] (live: 7s)[rather] (live: 7.5s)[not] (live: 8s)[think] (live: 8.5s)[about.] Yet...
[[Coffee Date|Coffee Date - Lily]]
At the café, Lily tries her best to фокус(click-replace: "фокус")[ಗಮನ] (click-replace: "ಗಮನ")[arotahi] (click-replace: "arotahi")[focus.] (click: "focus.")[Adam tells of another crazy night. She supports him. (click: "supports")["Who gives a fuck about (text-style: "superscript")[stability?"]](live: 4s)[She checks her phone frequently for messages from Dorothy. The hours pass as she listens to details of Adam's month.]] (click: "listens")[She's always been the kind to listen more than talk.](click: "talk.")[ She doesn't tell him about the drugs she brought again, though she knows he wouldn't roast her for this. A couple hours later, and with no sign of Dorothy, they leave and go to the [[parade.|Pride - Lily]]]{(live:0s)[<div class="message_Solid">Hey</div>]
(live: 2s)[<div class="message_Solid">Stop beating yourself up about it</div>]
(live: 4s)[<div class="message_Solid">I know better than most how difficult it is for you</div>]
(live: 6s)[<div class="message_Solid">You didn't push me away, you just...put me on hold, let's call it that, okay?</div>]
(live: 8.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">Let's meet tomorrow - you (text-style: "italic")[are] coming to the coffee date, right?</div>]
(live: 10s)[<div class="message_Solid">We'll use our cripple superpowers to forget about this month?</div>]
(live: 11.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">It's all gonna be alright</div>]
(live: 12.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">Don't stress yourself past your line again</div>]
(live: 14s)[<div class="message_Solid">Remember when we used to spend hours doing these together?</div>]
(live: 15s)[<div class="message_Solid">I wanna see you tomorrow</div>]}
(live: 16s)[Lily doesn't expect an answer before later...she continues using her phone, yet she quickly gets lost in it. Scroll after scroll with the finger. 5 minutes at first. 20 minutes in a bit. [[Scroll]]]
(set: $timeScrolling to 0)At the Pride, Lily and Adam join the crowds parading around the city. (click: "join")[Hours pass before everyone converges at the main square where a concert is happening. so] (click-replace: "so")[many] (click-replace: "many")[people.] (click: "people")[She feels good being surrounded, makes her feel less exposed.] (click: "exposed")[Within moments though, she loses Adam.] (click: "Adam.")[She shouts, trying to find him. No result. That guy really loves dancing.] (click: "dancing.")[Good luck to whomever ends up with tonight.] (click: "tonight.")[She leaves the crowd. Feels like opening her [[baggie.|Lily alone at pride]] ]{(live:0s)[<div class="message_Solid">Hey hey</div>]
(live: 2s)[<div class="message_Solid">I wouldn't dare to forget. Can't wait to hear the news.</div>]
(live: 4s)[<div class="message_Solid">I invited Dorothy too, she seems to be going through a bad time currently. Hope you don't mind?</div>]
(live: 6s)[<div class="message_Solid">See you in a bit :)</div>]}
(live: 7s)[(stop:)Before long, Lily realizes it's time for the meeting. She gets ready quickly. Doesn't even notice the (text-style: "shudder") + (text-style: "rumble") + (text-colour: "red")[spider] in the corner of the bathroom. As she leaves her flat, Lily [[picks up|Pick up drugs]] her baggie of drugs, against her better judgement.](set: $Dorothy to true)3AM. Blueish hue is all that emanates from the room's repose. And from Dorothy's face.
==>
<div class="message_Solid">im sorry
had a stressful day
<==
I told you it is alright.
==>
dont leave me!</div>
<div class="message_DottedNoBottom">
<==
Maybe we should ..</div>
<==>
[Dorothy doses off, deliriously. [[Wakes up again at 4AM|At 4AM]].](set: $drugs to 0)
Blueish hue again. Thoughtsracetoofast. Figures drone. She can't think, all's a cloud of thunder.
Contemplating. Whether she should text Lily about it...
<div class="message_Solid">[...]<nope1|</div>
(click: ?nope1)[Don't.
<div class="message_Solid">[Are you awake?]<Nope2|</div>]
(click: ?nope2)[Don't.
<div class="message_Dotted">[@&()=ยง(!=]<nope3|</div>
Eyes burn from strain.]
(click: ?nope3)[There are plenty of quick fixes to solve the issue of semi-somnolence. Dr. Steyn has been a great deal of help lately, especially on those //rock-bottom-days//.
She's just a burden to everyone and the Dr. - deserves no support. Nobody.
She gives in, wants to message [Lily]<seroquel|. Keep in touch, lest she leave.
(click: ?seroquel)[Seroquel does help.]<pills|(click: ?pills)+(text-colour:"transparent")[ <b>She's still titrating!</b>]
Had some great advice, too, though! [Breathing techniques.]<breathing|
(click: ?breathing)[ [[Lily]]. <b>I love her!!!!</b> [[Seroquel!]] [[Breathing Techniques?]]]]
(set: $drugs to 1)(set: $time to 1)125mg did the trick. The mind's raced to a halt. (text-style: "blur")[//Good Job!//]
{(live: 1s)[1. It]
(live: 1.5s)[ 2. Sorts]
(live: 2s)[ 3. The]
(live: 2.5s)[ 4. Thoughts]
}
(text-colour:"transparent")[Albeit absolutely overdosing, mind won't stop racing. Still a failure. He //will// leave her. Living with the parents again is just another thing for misfits to cross off of their bucket list. Like their marriage was any good. Father's sleeping on the couch, mother with another. Dorothy knew it right away. Unloved from birth on.]
{(live: 3s)[S]}{(live: 3.5s)[ l]}{(live: 4s)[ o]}{(live: 4.5s)[ w]}{(live: 5s)[ l]}{(live: 5.5s)[ y]}{(live: 6s)[ <sub>drifting</sub>]}{(live: 6.5s)[ o]}{(live: 7s)[ f]}{(live: 7.5s)[ f.]}{(live: 8s)[ Sleeping]}{(live: 8.5s)[ monsters]}{(live: 9s)[ need]}{(live: 9.5s)[ no]}{(live: 10s)[ attention.]}
(text-colour:"transparent")[It's society. Not her. That deems her unfit. If you can't take it, it is <b>imperative</b> she swallow that bitter pill. There's nothing wrong with it, just something wrong with her.]
(live: 10.5s)[At [[1PM]] Dorothy awakens to puffy eyes.]
Dorothy remembers the simple, yet calming technique she was supposed to perform when the anxiety becomes overwhelming. It employs a structured focus on the body while maintaining a regular, deep breath.
[[Breathe in]]
Breathe out (click-replace: "Breathe out")[Her lungs are empty. That did not work. Can't even coordinate simple tasks.](if: $drugs is 1)[Morning sun peeks through the blinders, indicative of having overslept. Again. Striped shape is reminiscent of instability. Oversleeping being part of it; condusive of making it worse. What did she do [again?]<drugs| (click: ?drugs)[She did //not// message Lily. Managed to control her impulses. Things could be worse! There are [[other messages|Downward Spiral]], though.]]
(if: $intrusion is 1)[A dreadful night of horror looms over Dorothy's heavy body. Nary a person should be subjected to reliving familial atrocities and animosities. Failing to get up on time equals [failing]<fail1| in live.] (click: ?fail1)[No reply from [Kyle]<fail2|.](click: ?fail2)[ Puts another [scar]<fail3|.](click: ?fail3)[ And another mark for the [wall]<fail4|.](click: ?fail4)[ Pain doesn't go away but Kyle did no message in return! Clearly the case! That's. It. End of the line. Knuckles dusted, carpet marbled. One hell of a night. (link: "Rock bottom")[(go-to: "Worse End")Worse End].]
(if: $messagedLily is 1)[Morning sun peeks through the blinders, indicative of having overslept. Again. Striped shape is reminiscent of instability. Oversleeping being part of it; condusive of making it worse. What did she do again? (click-replace: "What did she do again?")[Right... messaged Lily. Way to go, wreck. (click-replace: "Right... messaged Lily. Way to go, wreck.")[Can't even control the simplest of impulses at 4AM.](click-replace: "Can't even control the simplest of impulses at 4AM")[Just (link: "calm down")[(go-to: "Downward Spiral")Downward Spiral] already or do you want to make this even (link: "worse")[(go-to: "Worse End")Worse End].]]]
Somewhat soothing. Dorothy feels a little calmer already.
Breathe in (click-replace: "Breathe in")[Frustration rises. What can she ever achieve if even breathing is too complicated?]
[Out]
(click-replace: "Out")[In]
(click-replace: "In")[Out]
(click-replace: "Out")[In]
(click-replace: "In")[Out]
(click-replace: "Out")[In]
(click-replace: "In")[Wait, where was she?]
(click-replace: "Wait, where was she?")[Focus]
(click-replace: "Focus")[[[Out->Out]]]
This, dear player, may be a good point to peruse the contents of Dorothy's brain. In doing so, you may get a better understanding of why she acts the way she acts. However, do keep in mind that your being intrusive is highly [unethical]<choices|.
(click: ?choices)[(link: "I'd rather not")[(goto: "10AM")10AM]
[[Invade Dorothy's most private space]]]
(if: $time is 1 and $drugs is 1)[Dorothy musters up the strength to check up on last night's messages. Even though she'd rather [[curl up in a ball|Worse End]], she peers at messages by [[Adam|Message To Dorothy From Adam]].]
(if: $time is 1 and $messagedLily is 1)[Patched up figure musters up the strength to check up on last night's messages. Even though she'd rather [[curl up in a ball|Worse End]], she peers at messages by [[Adam|Message To Dorothy From Adam]] and [[Lily|Lily's Message to Dorothy]].]
(if: $time is 2)[Greasy fingers smudge a smartphone full of unread messages by [[Adam|Message To Dorothy From Adam]]. Pancake and bacon makes everything better. Dorothy happily complies to reading them.]
<div class="message_Solid">[hey]<Lily1|</div>
(click: ?Lily1)[<div class="message_Solid">[when im stressed out i have a hard time controlling my emotions]<Lily2|</div>]
(click: ?Lily2)[<div class="message_Solid">[i know Kyle is sick of this he wont even respond to my messages]<Lily3|</div>]
(click: ?Lily3)[<div class="message_Solid">[im scared. i cant take being rejected again]<Lily4|</div>]
(click: ?Lily4)[<div class="message_Solid">[you awake? i never meant to push you away]<Lily5|</div>]
(text-colour:"transparent")[It appears advisable to //not// perpetuate this path any further. Clearly, Dorthy is in severe distress. Maybe she should consider going to sleep.]
(click: ?Lily5)[[Ramble on]] or [Calm down already](click: "Calm down already")[(go-to: "Breathing Techniques?")Breathing Techniques?]](set: $time to 1)(set: $messagedLily to 1)
{(live: 0.5s)[<div class="message_Solid">Lily im sorry for having pushed you away</div>]
(live: 1s)[<div class="message_Solid">shit had really hit the fan. when i met Kyle he meant the world to me. i did no mean to push you away. my brain just cant process that many people at once....</div>]
(live: 2s)[<div class="message_Solid">im really harmful to the people around me. i should just stay alone</div>]
(live: 3s)[<div class="message_Solid">i would really like to make up with you. my life lies in shambles. i cant bear to have more people leave me.</div>]}
(text-color:"transparent")[Just what is wrong with you are pushing away everyone around you love just because something negative is happening it doesnt mean that people will abandon you one bad day is not the end of the world quit benmoaning your own incapabilities youre more than that youre just fine if only you accepted yourself for what you are]
{(live: 5s) [Ravaged as can be, Dorothy drifts off into modes of semi-somnombulance. T h Is iS hElL shE CanT takE being a (text-style: "shudder")[NuiSance] <sub>wh</sub><sup>Y</sup> iS she like THaT?!]}
{(live:8s)[Dorotohy drifts off. Not asleep, not quite awake. In the wake of her idiosyncrasies are left but eggshells to walk upon. Shame. You crippling people and yourself. Shame. Crippled being not capable of normal conduct. Shame.]}
{(live:9s)[Still awake, Dorothy stares at indents she left in walls. ... (link: "Am I too drowsy?")[(goto: "1PM")1PM]]}Repetition seemed to have done the trick. Impressed by how easy things can be if you actually //start// doing them, Dorothy drifts off to [[sleep]].(set: $time to 2)Birds sure know to let everyone know the sun is out. Now Dorothy knows too. 10AM. Decent. Keep that up for another 60 days and you may end up forming a habit. Could be worse. A wall plastered over's a wall never dented. Arm's dents dont go but there are [ways]<happy1|. (click: ?happy1)[Flowers and butterflies, personal stories to be told in ink. Pain's the same but this one goes away to leave happiness. Decisions to be made and templates to be gathered.] Is that [mum]<happy2| making pancakes? (click: ?happy2)[Bacon and maple. Wyoming looks weird when you put a tap on it, though. Dad's face doesn't bear the couche's texture for [once]<happy3|.] (click: ?happy3)[Yesyes there's more to life than just fighting. They really appreciate (text-style: "underline")[her being here again.] Maybe life's only as bad as you make it? Wasn't there a [[pride going?|Downward Spiral]]](set: $intrusion to 1)
Patient report:
Name: Dorothy Deacon
Age: 22
Diagnose: F60.3
Medication: Seroquel 75mg 0-0-1
The patient was mentally present during the assessment, albeit showing signs of slight dissosciation in presenting her case.
Systemic family constellation analysis is indicative of a dysfunctional family structure. The patient states that she has been severely abused by her uncle numerous times and has been neglected by her mother. She describes her parent's marriage as dysfunctional. The mother appears to be cheating on the father. Due to setbacks in terms of work and love relations to peers, the patient now has moved back in with her parents again.
Suggestions have been made to the patient to reconsider changing environments so as to not reinstigate past habits and structures. In reaction to that, the patient is most defensive, claiming that she needs her family's support. Lack of control over impulses and emotions is very much evident if confronted with current issues. The patient swiftly oscillates between defensive and offensive mechanisms.
Interpersonal relations are described as volatile. The patient is sexually insecure and incapable of clearly situating herself within the spectrum. Has had love relations to a close friend. Broke off contact, however, upon being drawn towards a colleague.
There are obvious signs of self-harm in the form of scars on her arms. Substance abuse, too, has been brought up as an issue. The patient claims to be substantially stable. Given the appearance of freshly healed scars, this may be manipulative behaviour.
Suggestions for the further progression have been made in terms of a regular medication with Seroquel in the evening to ease sleep and counteract rumination. Additonally, performing mindfulness excercises has been suggested. For further sessions, CBT is considered to be the best approach.
(link: "Happy Now?")[(goto: "1PM")1PM](text-style: "strike")[You are performing well in life!] (text-style: "underline")[Another] (text-style: "none")[mark.] The pain just doesn't go away. (text-colour: "transparent")[How should it?] (text-style: "condense")[This is too much to take.] (text-style: "outline")[Twenty marks.] (text-style: "expand")[How much longer can she live like this?] (text-style: "blur")[Sadness is overwhelming.] (text-style: "blurrier")[Very overwhelming.]
(text-style: "rumble")[Why?] (text-style: "shudder")[Why?!?]
(text-style: "fade-in-out")[Kyle] ... (text-style: "fade-in-out")[Lily]
Wheeping figure breaks down on the [floor]<broken|.
(click: ?broken)[Friends family loved ones caring ones all gone or broken why are you pushing away utter failure disgrace to the family disfunctional member of society mistfit leper not a single reason to stay alive no value no use just [quit existing]<broken2| already.]
(click: ?broken2)[Hello?]
(click-replace: "Hello?")[Are you there?]
(click-replace: "Are you there?")[What's going on?!?]
(click-replace: "What's going on?!?")[Dorothy has completely [[shut down|Final Meeting]].]
[Lily's all that is on Dorothy's mind. One (text-style: "rumble")[hell] of a ride. Glad that's over. Finally time to reunite with the most beautiful of [flowers]<flower|.] (click: ?flower)[There's so much to catch up on there's so much left unsaid there's so much she's sorry for there's so much that has been going wrong there's so much that needs to be made right: Her. This. Them. [It]<1|] (click: ?1)[[will]<2|] (click: ?2)[[be]<3|] (click: ?3)[[alright.]<4|] (click: ?4)[The (text-style: "rumble")[hustle] and (text-style: "shudder")[bustle] is beautifully colourful. Everybody seems to be enjoying themselves the way they are. And so does Dorothy for once. Rummaging for an hour to no avail, Dorothy is taken out of her trance by the blare of a (text-colour: "blue")[siren] [nearby]<siren|.] (click: ?siren)[Paramedics rush to the prostrate body of [Lily]<5|.] (click: ?5)[Why did you even leave your [house]<6|?] (click: ?6)[Letdown of the year. She slams her fists into the ground and completely [[gives up|Final Meeting]] on life and love alike.][<div class="message_Solid">Hey</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">Stop beating yourself up about it</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">I know better than most how difficult it is for you</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">You didn't push me away, you just...put me on hold, let's call it that, okay?</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">Let's meet tomorrow - you (text-style: "italic")[are] coming to the coffee date, right?</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">We'll use our cripple supperpowers to forget this month?</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">It's all gonna be alright</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">Don't stress yourself past your line again</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">Remember when we used to spend hours doing these together?</div>]
[<div class="message_Solid">I wanna see you tomorrow</div>]
Lily's back. Who needs Kyle anyway? He's just not good for [her]<think1|. (click: ?think1)[Five marks belong to [Lily]<think2| already.] (click: ?think2)[Will be another five when you she [leaves]<think3| you again!] (click: ?think3)[Are you [ready]<think4| for it?] (click: ?think4)[You just put her on hold]<think5| (click: ?think5)["//Don't stress yourself out//"]<think6| (click: ?think6)[Rumination won't stop. Must be the [medication]<think7|.] (click: ?think7)[Time flies by when you're having problems. Yet, Dorothy finds the courage to go to the [[pride.|Pride - Dorothy]]]<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "<==")[Hey Dorothy! I know you've been having some |trouble>[guy troubles] lately... :/]]</div>
(click: ?trouble)[<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "<==")[There's a super cute boy here and I just found out he's single! I'll leave him for you if you're |interest>[interested] ;-)]]</div>]
(click: ?interest)[<div class="message_Solid">[(align: "<==")[I'm here at Pride with Lily. You should come |join>[join] us! See you [soon]<thoughts|, babe! :-*]]</div>]
(click: ?thoughts)[Yet another notch on the bedpost, Adam. Are you sure you wan't to leave that one to her? That's [not]<doubt1| like him at all.] (click: ?doubt1)[For once, Dorothy can already forsee the mess she will get herself into when trusting Adam with this kind of [thing]<doubt2|.] (click: ?doubt2)[Still, she gets a chance [Lily]<doubt3|.] (click: ?doubt3)[To make up and out. Dorothy decided to go to the [[pride.|Pride - Dorothy]]]
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